Hey everyone, been a really long time since I did a new journal. What can I say, laziness and life reared their ugly heads. This journal turned out to be more of a big ass rant than I expected it to be. Oh well, I needed to get this off my chest. So, here it goes...
I live in a city of around 60,000 people. It's one of the "satellite" cities to Kansas City, MO called Blue Springs. It has a small town feel, despite having that many people and is also considered one of the nicer, well to do towns in the area. In the nearly five years we've lived here, there has been a noticeable surge in churches. Normally, I wouldn't care, leave me alone about it, and I'll leave you alone about it. Problem is, as many of you know, I'm gay and an atheist. With an increase in religion going on here, me being what I am is gradually becoming more of an issue. My boyfriend Cory is feeling it too. Just this past week even... we were at Wal Mart and two "Christian" teenage girls came up to us and started spewing that Cory and I are going to hell. I guess they saw the two of us holding hands or something. I won't repeat what Cory said to them, but it wasn't polite and they took off... I'm sure crying to their parents about the evil gay men in the pet food isle.
Oh, but it doesn't end there.
Saturday night, Cory and I were at the town's annual fall festival. We got hungry and wanted to get some food. Everyone kept raving about the burgers at this one booth, the problem was the line was amazingly long. But, we figured what the hell, we've been hearing about these burgers for a few years now, but never got one. So we went and got a funnel cake to snack on while we waited in line for these damned burgers.
7:17pm we got in line... and it was going nowhere fast. Great. The funnel cake will be gone in two minutes and the line won't ha... HEY! we took a step forward. We finished off the cake before we moved again, and looked at each other like, "Are we really gonna do this?" just as some little kids behind us started complaining about the long ass line too. They had to be between the ages of 5 and 8 and were cute as hell. One of them just blurted out, "oh my god we've been here for 12 years already!" after only standing there for ten minutes or so. We were laughing. Another five minutes or so passed, and the mother of these kids took all of them out of line to go walk around, leaving dear old dad in line to get their food.
A few minutes later, we were very slowly inching forward. We're standing there, minding or own business, and talking to each other. There was a late 30s early 40s woman with her 20ish year old daughter in front of us, the father behind us, and two other women behind him who were workers in a booth from some church in the area. We know this because someone else from their church came up and started talking to them while in line a few minutes before. We could hear them, taking note of the short 60s something woman with a New York accent which isn't something we hear a lot of around here. Anyway, while Cory and I are talking, we were interrupted by that N.Y. accent.
"Excuse me, you cut in line, we were in front of you."
Cory and I look at each other, completely caught off guard, both mentally saying to each other, "Seriously?"
Cory was the first to speak, "No ma'am, we've been here the whole time."
She responded "No, those kids were here and then they left and you..."
I cut her off, "No, we've been behind these two lady's since we got in line."
She gave me this look as if to say, "how dare you interrupt me!" but continued saying, "No, those kids left and you got..."
The father behind us broke in, "Ma'am, those were my kids. My wife took them to go walk around so they didn't have to stand in this line complaining the whole time. These two boys," he pointed to Cory and I, "were in front of us."
The mother and daughter in front of Cory and I confirmed, "Yeah, they've been behind us all along."
This old bitch waves her hand in disgust and turns around resuming her spot in line behind the Dad. The lady she was with stayed out of it, but said afterward to the old bitch in a quiet voice (which we still heard) that she should apologize. The look on that cunt's face was one of shock. Like she was about to say "How dare you suggest I do such a thing!" But she did say, "Why?!"
Cory and I were standing there with this "Oh my god, SERIOUSLY?!" look. That would a be a more intensified version of the standard "Seriously" look we did moments before.
THEN! The dad behind us looked at the old bitch and said, "That isn't very Christian of you."
I have no clue what her expression was due to the fact Cory and I were both concentrating on concealing the fact we were about to bust out laughing.
The women in front of us also had this look of "Wow," not just because of what the Dad said, but because of what the old bitch said next. In this prissy, my shit don't stink, purely innocent, why is everyone ganging up on me, victim card tone "What! I didn't do anything wrong!"
"Oh sure you didn't you snooty bitch." Now Cory was pissed. "Coming up and rudely accusing us of line cutting is perfectly OK behavior."
I think she gasped. But I can't be sure, my brain was trying to process this insanity. She started to say something else but Cory cut her off before and said, "If people like you..." he pointed at her hideously bright neon green church shirt, "...are what your religion is pumping out, I'm SO glad we aren't a part of it." She then turned her back to us and resumed talking to the other woman she was in line with as if it never happened.
Granted, this didn't have anything to do with me being a homosexual atheist, but it still demonstrates the sheer audacity of "Christians" we've been dealing with more and more lately. Not just in the real world, but online as well. It is getting worse and quite frankly, it scares me. It's people like this bitch that lead to my mother leaving her church earlier this year, for how she was being made an outcast for having a gay son. As if it were her fucking fault!
These people go on and on about how you can't have morals without god, yet they are the VERY FIRST ONES to cause this sort of petty, needless drama. They are so divisive and can't bare the thought of "building bridges" between people who are different or have different views than them. They are the ones building walls between us and the sad thing is, they don't even realize it! If these are the morals they get from their religion and god, I can't see how anyone would want to be a part of it.
For my friends in the DAU chatroom, I know I've been on a bit of a "Speaking out against the religious" kick lately, but sorry, it is affecting me, and many others, on a much more personal level now than ever before. Rude, insulting, degrading, hate-filled, supremely arrogant and condescending Bible belchers who apparently get off on attacking people who are different than them. It's for this reason I've been more vocal and speaking out against it. I don't care who you are, what color you are, or even what you believe, so long as you keep it to yourself. I'm not one to build walls, I'd much prefer to make a friend. But these people apparently want no part of it. They wish to put their archaic and horrific beliefs over that of real people. I don't get it! Don't you realize you are only hurting your "cause?" In turn making people like Cory and I even more vocal against this shit. If you want to end up publicly humiliated like we did with that evil bitch, grow a goddamn brain and stop your bullshit! Otherwise, people like me and my boyfriend are GOING TO MAKE FOOLS OUT OF YOU. And believe me, you make SO fucking easy!
For you believers out there who are disappointed with others of your faith for the actions they take, yet do nothing about it, sorry, I'm of the opinion you are just as much at fault. At fault for not standing up to these morons and calling them out for their bullshit. Are these the idiots you want representing you're religion? They are only making YOU look bad while greatly affecting, in a very negative manner, the lives of MANY others.
I've recently come to the conclusion, and have stated so in the DAU chat, and various other places... I'm done. I'm done being nice and polite to these hate-mongers. I'm not taking any more of their shit, and I will HAPPILY turn their bullshit back on them. I was raised in a Christian home, I've actually read the damned Bible (one of the many reasons I'm now an Atheist) and it's been made quite clear, I know their religion FAR better than they do! I have ZERO problems showing how wrong they are about so many different things. I'm done respecting them. I'm done respecting their religion. I'm done respecting their "god."
I honestly feel that if people would stop wasting so much time and money on myth and legends, and concentrate our efforts on learning about each other, we'd start to understand one another better and we could finally get past this intolerance these religious zealots swim in. But no, being nice has proven ineffective against their hate. So now I have to resort to this.
I fucking appreciate it.
PS. From the minute we got in line, till the time we left, it took one hour and one minute. And OHMYGOD, that was one of the best burgers I've ever had!
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